how great is your unchanging love

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

♥ 8:19 PM

shallow + bitchy + me = shallow bitchy me? ):

I've been neglecting my blogger. ): I'm so sorry my dear blogger! I still love you very much, just been busy muchly since friday. (: I'm supposed to be busy doing History PT right now, but since it's in cahoots with Time and thus already dragging me halfway to my death, I figure they can both wait for a while.

I have tons to blog about! Yay!

Haha, I will start with today, then Friday, then Saturday, then Sunday, then yesterday!

Haha. Today...

OH! You know, I was reflecting on the lit Greatest Gift story, even though we were done with that ages ago. I mean, I was thinking really, I can hardly think of one positive thing that I've done! But without me, the world would be short of -one less bitch -one less noseyparker -one less idiot -one less competing gymnast -my sister would still ride bicycles -my parents would have saved money on my education -my parents would have saved money from the trips to the doctor (especially the stitches, since I was screaming and kicking madly: there was no anaethetic okay! (x ). And I feel so disillusioned you know! I felt so accomplished in Primary School, looking at all the 10+ trophies sitting, shining proudly on the shelf, achievements from chess, gym and church and sports fests. But now I realise, they're all rather meaningless. Even if I hadn't been there to help myself or help my team, someone else would have taken my place anyway, and clinched the trophy for themselves! Like I'm snatching the chances of winning away from someone else, and it just makes me feel totally selfish. And it wouldn't matter whether I had been born or not, just that even someone else would have the trophies, and it's not like that's such a totally bad thing right?

Oh wells. So today! School was sucky, cause ____ is darn pissed at me. Why: I don't understand. I was just talking to ____ and she suddenly gave me this disgusted look, and later told me: "just go far away." I don't understand why. And I really really love her lots and I care about her, so I feel kind of helpless. And that wave I sent to you after school, it was like an instinct, a twitching in my hand that would otherwise have not gone away, and I hope it helps you realise how much I really care about you, even if I don't understand why you're so mad at me. ): I'm sorry for whatever it is anyway.

Although... I was kind of smart and hid under the computer table when Ting, Ruby, Shao and Selene were trying to get me down for lunch. Heh! Only Zhuo Rong saw, cause she was sitting closest. She was sniggering at me! That sneaky little girl! (x Selene: "Wow! Lianne actually went down by herself!"

Anyways. ): After school, I went for gym with Feng Yue and Gillian. Haha, those two and Jaclyn always cheer me up, even if with Gillian, we constantly broach the insane realm of retard-ation. (x Heh. ("JACLYN! LIANNE! YOU ARE RETARDED! YOU IDIOT! YOU YOU! I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!") Haha, Jac and I were O.o today, cause Fengy threw Gillian's stuff at her from the trampoline, and all she said was "Thank you very much Feng, I love you." Heh! We were jealous!

So anyways, before that happened, I went to find Feng in 101. (: I missed that dear girl so much, always ~~ponning~~ not going for gym practice, so we hugged. (: Loves. Haha, ate macs as usual. (yes, I am guilty of breaking the habit I promised myself I'd keep. ): Yoghurt for lunch) An ice cream cheered me up immediately!

We had lots of fun at gym before it started, jumping crazily around on the trampoline. I can't tell you how blissful it is, bouncing around like you're flying and trying to catch up with each other (in the 8-square game) and suddenly another friend interrupts and jumps in. (: It's a serious ton of fun!

Oh and I remember Gillian talking about some couple she saw when she was taking a bus last time, performing oral sex. O.o Excuseee me! And she happily went to explain what it meant, cause Feng and I were "huh?!"

Hehe, after that was fun too! (: Gym we practised for teacher's day! Hehe, yes, I really need to lose weight now cause MR TEO put me at the direct top of the three pyramids, so I must not squash my teammates.

Feng&Jac: -gang up against me- YOU'RE ANOREXIC, STILL SAY YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!
Me: I AM NOTNOTNOTNOT ANOREXIC! (x
Feng: -to Jac- You see right, drunkards who say they are not drunk are usually drunk, drunkards who say they are drunk are not drunk! So anorexics who say they are not anorexic are anorexic, and anorexics who say they are anorexics are not anorexics!
Me: FINE! I'M ANOREXIC THEN! XD
Jac: YES YES, OF COURSE YOU ARE!

Hai! Those two, I really give up on them! (x

On the trampoline:

Me: -jumps furiously, determinedly trying to make Jac and Feng bounce up-
Stacey: What is she doing?
Jac: Trying to prove that she isn't anorexic!

For blur poks: you need to be a little heavy to bounce others up. (x

I LOVE RGARTGYM! :D

Heh! Yeap, then later, once we were done with the pyramids, Jac and I and Feng went to try bars. I still can't do the starting! Then at the ending, where we have to land on the lower bar, my feet hit it and I swung forward again. (x That Mr Teo was watching, so paiseh! Heh, and MR TEO ALSO SAID I'M VERY HEAVY KAY.

Yeah! So that about sums up today. (:

So I shall move back to Friday! :D Friday was good if I remember correctly! (: I can't remember much of what we did in school though, so. Haha! But after school, I went home and tried to chiong as much as possible of tuition homework. Of course I couldn't complete the zuo wen though, but lao shi was surprisingly okay with it. ((: I like this lao shi, I think she's rather good! And very very very friendly. (: After tuition, I rushed to Cathay to meet Carissa and Sarah and Linnette. (: I hugged Carissa too! I miss her so much. (:

Carissa, Sarah, Linn: LIANNE! -run madly towards me-
Sarah: LIANNE! COVER YOUR SHOULDERS! (hehe, wearing off-shoulder top)
Linn: Aiyo, nevermind la! She can't be worse than Shao Wei right??

Heh! (x SHAO WEI IS INDECENT. HP was good. (x I realised how cool Bellatrix is! I mean, I don't like her killing Sirius, but the "I killed Sirius Black! -HAHAHA-" part was acted really well! :D I like that part.

And the fighting was just really cool. Like how the materialise out of the black and white stuffs. TONKS ROCKS MY SOCKS TOO. Heh! (: Rahh, so cool! (: (I had nachos and a subway cookie, GUILTY AGAIN! Gained so much that night. ): I'm glad I lost it easily though! (: )

Heh! Then the two boring-agars Sarah and Linn went home by MRT. Heh. Car and I went to get ice cream (GUILTY AGAIN) and then went to Starbucks for my Iced Caramel Macchiato. Heh, I was so full and felt so bad cause I don't think apple pie from Macs should mix with strong caffeine. Stomachache.

Haha, we lingered around for a while then decided that we should go home cause it was getting late. (:

I liked that night. (:

Saturday was great fun too! Heh, my maid was supposed to wake me up at 8am but woke me at 9.30am instead. (x Thank goodness the 8am was only so I could wake up early, so I ended up being 10 minutes early. (: Gym was from 10am-1pm but super slack. It was just the performance choreographing, but no one to set discipline, so lots of us ran off to play after a while. (x Most of us went to the spongepit. (: I carved something on the sponge and buried it in a corner. (: Jaclyn nearly dug it up, but I stopped her in time. (: Then Jaclyn and I vs Gillian and Florence in a SPONGEFIGHT! :D It was super fun. Florence went super hyper - I've never seen her like that before, but it totally rocked. (: Haha, they tried building a castle, but Jaclyn and I knocked it over. My arm got tired for a while, so I joined Ann on the huge green mat on the spongepit. (x We both lay down and since I was the only one who gave up fighting, sponge flew past us once in a while and we caught it and had a lying down spongefight. (x That was really funny! We were so dormant, yet so active. (x Heh! It was REALLY fun!

I LOVE RGARTGYM!

Went home and waited for Mr Tan. (: Kicked his chair again of course. Poked him with my pen multiple times. He's a really great math tutor though, I must admit I've learnt lots about math from him. (: Haha!

Two hours pass quickly, so I rushed off to CO concert! It was much better than I thought it'd be! Heh! No exposure to Chinese instruments before, sorry! Heh, but I loved it! I met Jing Yi for the first time too. (: She's real nice! Haha! We were like: "Whoa! Their fingers move so fast!" Haha, she's super cool, she wanted to join artgym! (:

Yeap! Later, my parents decided to ditch me and go to Jurong to look at puppies. D: So I had to wait like 40mins for them, stoning at the foyer. (x NO ONE SMS ME EVIL PEOPLE.

Heh! That night was okay! Haha! I chatted on MSN for a long time. Then when I was gonna sleep, I decided not to, cause my sister came back, and I don't get much chance to talk to her cause she's always out and all. (: So my mum, sis and I decided to watch Vacancy together! Haha, I'm quite scaredy-cat and jumped at the littlest things so my sister was laughing at me. (x I liked the show, but not the ending though. (x NO EXPLANATION EXCUSE ME. Suspense was just great though! Loved it. Slept at about 2.30am.

SUNDAY WAS A TOTALLY EXCELLENT DAY! :D Hehe! (: Woke up late so didn't go church. ): Went out for lunch at Sloane (sp?) Court. Cool! Haha, I had fish&chips. Yummy. We discussed the meanings of our names. (: Haha, my sister is the luckiest and my elder but not eldest brother has the worst name. (x It totally had me in stitches. I shall not post his name's meaning here, to prevent humiliation. (x I am, of course the ah lian. -.- Lianne means "The Graceful Willow" or in other books "Spirited Babe". My chinese name means serenity. (x I'm sure.

Then they brought me to Holland Village to see the "cute cute Westie puppy", who IS NOW MY PUPPY! Haha, her name is Becky. (: She's super cute! I think i might put in a pic of her later. (: I totally love her! So instead of meeting KR at Marina Square, she came to my house first to see Becky. (: Haha! She agrees that Becky is super cute! (: (: (: Yay!

Later we went to Marina Square anyway. (: I bought a new INK bag and a new MYUK wallet. I'm so happy! Haha, Shao is scared of the skull on my bag. xP It's not that scary! Cool what. (: Haha! Yeap, so! We had a great time and I feasted at Long John Silver's for the first time in my life. WOW, I really like the food! (: Yayy. (GUILTY AGAIN)

Haha, I think everytime I go out, I eat too much.

Yeah! It was to celebrate KR's birthday too, which was on Friday. Happy Birthday! (:

Night was spent rushing homework, if I remember correctly. (x Heh.

Yesterday was a really fun day! (: Haha! (: Chinese and Math was quite slack. During recess, I really didn't wanna eat cause I felt so guilty, and Selene and Ting Fang resorted to literally dragging me to the canteen! (x I was clinging to Ruby's table. Hehehe, they had to pry me off it. (x They dragged me out the door before I finally co-operated. (x Ha! Aiyoh. I ate two chips and then ran up to class again. (x HA SO THERE! (x

After school, just went home. -.-

Haha, kay, even if I'm not going to do my History PT today, I will do my cl compo, I hope.

Gnight people! (:

Dett.