Tuesday, October 31, 2006
♥ 9:29 PM
Harlowz everyone. Dum dee dum dum. Friends are all going wrong again and I don't know what to do larh. Gandalf is mad at me cause I wrote some letter to her and told her to lay off HIM and she asked why she should cause I always said mean things about HER HIM and I said it's just retaliation. Elisa understood and got the point and blah and shes still really nice and stuff but gandalf hasn't talked to me since. Shao Wei is completely oblivious and blur about what's going on. Anyway, this is just what I'm going to say to her, regardless of whether she reads it or not.
I wrote you a poem, even though I did not say it was for you but you still did not realise what I meant and now I doubt that you even read it. I've said I was sorry and that I wanted you back and you threw it in my face. You refuse to talk to me unless it's absolutely necessary so how do you expect me to be able to explain anything in a matter of a few minutes? What on earth do you want me to do? Throw myself at your feet and beg to be forgiven? Because you know I'm not going to do that. If our friendship was going to turn out like this, then why did you even bother in the first place? For someone to talk to? For someone to follow you to the toilet while you cried over results? For what? I didn't understand and I still don't but I disillusioned myself to think that it was because we treasured our friendship. I never would have insulted him if your hadn't insulted him first. It's called retaliation. Frankly, I don't know how you're going to react to this but I doubt that you'll even read it in the first place. I don't doubt that we may never speak again. Right now, I don't care how'll you'll take this but I know I will tomorrow. Thank you for showing me who my true friends are, even if they weren't involved in this in the first place. I'm sorry if I caused you to hurt, even though if you told me it was my fault, I still wouldn't believe you, I'm still sorry. This isn't a cry for help, just some things that I need to say.Yep, feel much better after getting that off my chest. Cya!
Determinescence.
Monday, October 16, 2006
♥ 10:37 AM
Harlowz! It's a bright sunny day and the sun is shining ever so brightly in the sky! What shit am I talking about. ><>< I don't like soccer, no offence meant to fans, it's only one opinion. So I went upstairs and watched the chinese show, the serial one, I Not Stupid Two, which I discovered like two or three weeks ago. I was reminding myself to watch it again but I forgot. I love that show! Its sooooo funny. Then there was this part when Tom wanted to give a Valentine and put it in the girl's book, then the girl came along and he was so worried that she would find out that he shoved the WHOLE thing in his mouth, except the pop-out part. So funny. Yay! Must remember to watch it again. Well, then I just watched cartoons for a while then my sister came up and asked if I wanted to go bowling. I was like YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY. YES! I love bowling. Then when I went downstairs, Kian Zi was like are you better than your sister? I think I blushed and said yes. So mean to admit it on the day before your sis's bdae you know... He turned to someone and said Maybe she can be on our team. Then Jon's gf came over and asked me if I was good and then kind of shrugged and shook my head at the same time. Weird, I mean, what sort of person will say that they're good? But anyway, she was really nice. Ah, in my dream world now, continue later! =)
Friday, October 13, 2006
♥ 3:42 PM
Hi everyone. I'm not really in that mad fanfic inspiration mood anymore cause lots of stuff have been going wrong for me lately... Everytime i think of my grandma its like theres this BIG cloud of guilt tagging along behind me. Everytime I think of Steph or my mum or my dad its like I want to punch something HARD. And Shao is like in Cambridge and I'm so worried that I'll get used to not seeing her in school and then I like forget who she is then I have one less VIP to talk to. Then my brothers are away, what if it becomes harder and harder for me to talk to them huh? I'm only okay with like T. and Kim and Fina and Kar Rong. Don't get me wrong, I really like others but they make me mad about everyday. Don't tell me I have to go see a teacher or a counsellor or smth coz I will kill you. I don't talk to adults, I talk to my friends, I'm just so much more comfortable with them, or rather I talk to Shao Wei. The rest don't really know anything. No offence. At least Shao is coming back in 5 dayss? I think... Bye!
Determinescence
Friday, October 06, 2006
♥ 6:55 AM
Hello everyone! Listening to Jetsetter now. Its PSLE week and I'm dying. Etch. :'( Had math today, was okay but i dont think I'll get full marks cause I dont have that glowy feeling I did when I got full marks in prelims. Etch. I'm suffering from chinophobia I think. Two of my chinese teachers told me to stop studying and do my best tomorrow while one tells me not to come online so I can cram like crazy. Ugh. I'm so sleepy. Yeah well. Whatever. On Tuesday, Ms Phua took over our maths lesson. I didn't raise my hand and she offered some not so subtle hints that I'm a selfish little girl who knows the answers to the questions but won't answer them. :'( :'( Ah well, i really hope she lets me go for the science remedial tomorrow. :'( I just finished Chinese tuition and caught some freako insect. Eek! It has like, super long pincers! Help! Anyway, I love meringues! But must stop eating. Too much sugar plus I'm SUPPOSED to be on a diet! Agh. Okay, nevermind. =)
Determinescence
Monday, October 02, 2006
♥ 11:59 AM
Hi! I was like super adrenaline today. I slept at 3.30am yesterday and woke up at 6am today to send my maif to the airport. She won't work for us again! :'( Anyway, i came back to use the computer, then i went out for lunch with da fam, then i had AWANA! so fun! and rachel will be coming next sunday or next next sunday. then i came back, used the comp, had tuition, then realized that i had some majorly good reviews and am now on 5 ppl's fav author's list! YAY! yesh, well, august still wont agree with me that DR is cute even though she admitted that i was right about EW and SL. im so angry larh! and then on friday gandalf was like DR is so flabby, something,something. i cant remember and its too scandalizing to post anyway. Well, here is what i want to say, its actually a song.
I don't care what they say,I don't care what they do,Cause they all fade away when it's just me and you.When it's more than a crush,An impossible rush,I don't care what they say when you're there,I don't care.All my friends think you're weird,But they don't know much about you.While they just disappear,When you're hanging out with us.So your hair is a mess,They don't know how good you treat me.I pay no attention,Cause I know who you are.That song is like so nice! I love that song. Anyone who wants to hear it can go to
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2182kkFuud0&mode=related&search=
Check it out! It rocks! I'm not in a happy mood and I'm not in a sad mood so I'll blog when im in a fully happy mood. (about friday of course, that was fun!)
Soo, until then! =)
Determinescence
P.S. HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!
