Hello to everyone who still reads my blog! (: Hahaz, about no one, so I'm blogging to myself! Yay! Or not. Haha, I just had my OWLs on Final Prophecy (http://finalprophecy.proboards50.com/ - haha, I don't care about how lousy you think FP is Lidan, You lucky I didn't tell Allison okaes... :P) yesterday. I was so nervous in school you know! THEN LIDAN WENT TO TELL MY OWLER HOW NERVOUS I WAS!!! Grr. Haix, my OWLer, Freedom Isn't Free, haha, I bet she was laughing at me larhxx. I really hope I pass! So nervous, she sent it to the teachers liaos, I should be getting my results soon! Oh, and when she sent me a PM 'Re: OWLS', I was so scared it would contain bad information or something, so I didn't open it this morning, and when I finally opened it, I covered the text and read line by line, promising myself to close it if it contained something I didn't want to read. :P See how lame I can be?? '-.-I tell you, the moment I receive the next thing titled 'OWLS', it's gonna take me a week before I finally open it, but maybe not, cause my curiousity would get the better of me. :P I will be really scared though. Maybe I'll get Lidan or Shao Wei to open it for me. They are the only two whom I truly trust right now. Besides Linnette, I trust Linn, but dear Linn can't log in properly to FP, that's why she can't help me. Car is just getting me angry right now. Like the other day, when we went to RGPS to see the teachers, we ran into my gym junior (I can't believe I'm finally a senior!! SQUEE!!) and she was like, go to Nanyang, don't go to RGSS!!!! I mean, I don't mind if she's telling my juniors to go to Nanyang, school spirit is expected, but she deliberately told her not to go to RGSS!! And in front of Ms. Lim, she was bragging about Nanyang, bragging, not telling about, and turned to me and asked, "Don't you regret not getting lower marks and going to Nanyang?" I was sorta angry, so I just said No, but then added a reason, which was I won't survive in HCL, so I turned back to look at Ms. Lim, then I could see Car roll her eyes. Then, after that, she was like, maybe we should meet up again on Saturday, I miss you and Shao Wei so much! I wasn't sure whether I really wanted it, so I just kind of grunted. And I don't think she really misses us lor, she just misses telling us how great Nanyang is and how sucky RGSS is. Urgh! Nanyang is a really nice school, I totally agree with that, but she doesn't have to degrade my school!

*sigh, breathes* Haha, you know, my maid, she wanted to bring my dog outside, but she was holding the mop, so Sassy was like so scared and pretended that she could not walk, so my mother was like, nevermind larh, then Sassy like, scrambled back to her super despo. Brb, dinner now.

Back! Typing with one hand now, eating yum pineapple tarts. <333 ((:Dinner took me about 3 minutes, cause there was like, green chilli inside and my mum said it wasn't hot, but it totally was, and it took away my appetite. Then, I saw those irresisitble pineapple tarts on the kitchen counter. They were calling my name!! Dett, (not my real name, but no way I', posting it here.) Dett, Dett, eat us, you KNOW you want to... Who was I to say no? I'm sad though, cause it's the only box before the real goodies that my mum orders come, so I can't eat it all. :'( Maybe I will anyway. They're sooo filled with pineappley goodness! *pops last bit into mouth and chews really slowly* Mmm. Bye bye tarteys, will eat more of your friends later! (:

Remember I said I was so over that guy? I can't get him out of my mind okay, he was even in the Chinese students newspaper! Grr. He pops out everywhere. *glare*

I'm listening to this really nice song now! Here's a little bit of it. It's called 'Hey Juliet', by 'LMNT'

Hey Juliet.....
Hey Juliet
Hey I've been watching you.
Every little thing you do.
Every time I see you pass by my homeroom class,
makes my heart beat fast.
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes

I don't know, it just gives me a little, hopeful kind of feeling. (: The tune just rocks too! You can hear the song at Zhen Ling's blog, which is where I first discovered the song! Haha, it also reminds me of me and Shao Wei's pact in this line:

Maybe some day you and me can run away.

Haha, cause Shao and I want to move into our own little apartment when we grow older! Yay! But, I doubt that our double pact (yes, it's a double pact) will last. It's a double pact:

1. Move into apartment together, find the guy, make sure both of us have found him, have a double wedding, you know, where two couples get married, and then move into separate houses, sell the apartment and split the money!

2. Be friends forever no matter what conflicts occur.

See? But, well, we both get caught up in our own lives. Like today, throughout PSL Session and Mass Cheering, she totally like, didn't talk to me. And like, on MSN, it's always me who goes, 'HI SHAO!!', all enthu and stuff. ALWAYS. She never initiates it! If I were to never see her in school, she wouldn't notice and wouldn't bother calling me. Sighz. I heard that Sec Sch friendships are closer though, so that's good! (:

About my school life... Let's see. Yesterday, I had Rhythmic Gymnastics sort-of-trials. Wah, I had to bend until like what okay.. And my left leg is my bad leg in split, and the teacher press so hard until I touch the floor! My left leg was shaking like mad. *glowers* Stupid shakey thingo. I was thinking, pain, pain, pain!!! I survived though! I realised that I have no hand-foot co-ordination. :P I can do the gym legs moves, the ropes moves, but not both together! '-.- I got so nervous I like, didn't dare to do anything... Today, I had Artistic Gym! I just realised how much I truly miss gym when I did the floor. I was so happy, just doing what I'm good at and talking to my friends. Feng Yue, a girl whom I was bowling with at Bowling Second Trial, got into Art Gym! YAY! I like her, she's very nice. I thought she would go bowling, since she was 6 rank, but apparently her mum didn't want her to take bowling, so she put art gym as first choice. (: Another big + for art gym! At first, she was like, oh are you the girl I bowled with? I was like, DUH! I can't believe you, Feng Yue! We were like laughing and laughing. Simone is in art gym! Yay, it's a good opportunity for me to get to know her better. We didn't really know each other that well in Pri Sch, even though we're both GEPs. Gym was really fun, but it didn't help my muscle aches from Rhyth Gym... But, Li Mei is in Rhyth Gym and she's like, one of the bestest PSLs!! :'( I'm just not cut out for Rhyth though... Oh, and the Gym male coach is super nice! He only teaches the Seniors though. He let us play on the trampoline, Go ahead! During playtime, you all can play! So it wasn't really playtime, more of a really long water break, but tramp is way fun!! The seniors were practising tramp. They're like, so super pro larh!! *turns green with envy* His facial expression when one of the girls make a mistake is freaky though. My coach is the female one, she's nice too, but can be scary too. :P Yeah, so I've decided to join Art Gym, but I have to change my 3rd Lang days! :'( :'( I'm really sorry, Linn!! Haix. My parents aren't happy though, cause gym is on tues, thurs and sat, and my 3rd lang will prob be like, mon and fri, so the only day I come back at regular time is wed... I'm sad too! I might drop 3rd Lang altogether though. Sighzz.

Oh, I promised to post my poem here right?

I am someone invisible who runs from her fears
I wonder why God gave us our crying tears
I hear the deathly silence, the silence of the dead
I see the traces of life from which someone fled
I want tears of joy and acceptance from my peers
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

I pretend that I am cheerful and carefree
I feel the gentle caress of the wind on my cheeks
I touch the indiscernible barrier that distinguishes me from others
I worry that the hurt will never heal
I cry when you say we cannot be friends
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

I understand that soon I will be free
I say that I will never forget those who made me feel unique
I dream of a world where something special always lies ahead
I try to hold on to what I believe in
I hope that one day everything will be clear
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

It's much better on microsoft, cause I have a rocking font and nice pics of roses. (: I'm trying to concentrate on my fanfics, but with FP so addictive, I can't stop! Haha, I managed to get in a whole paragraph of the last chappie of Fight Against Voldemort last night. Car isn't going to be very happy with me... DX

Okay, I'm drained and don't know what else to say. So, I shall wrap it up! G'nite!! *grabs more tarts*

Yours,
Determinescence.