Hmms. Hi everyones! Yay! Hello! I got lots of homework to do! ~boo~ I'm not procrastinating, I'm ignoring it. (: Haha, you know that squiggly thing --> ~~, reminds me of Epona and Jesse on FP! We were having RPG right, and then Epona was like, "'No but you shouted it at them! We don't want to scare the new people,' she spat at him." Haha, Jesse took 'spat' literally and went, "EWWWW YOU SICKO!!" haha, they're damn funny. (: I'm 'angry' at Ting Fang! She introduced me to blog shopping and I've spent sixty six bucks on accessories already! Haha, thanks for introducing me, they have great stuff! :P I'm gonna start my own online shop soon, must support me, mmkays? Buy from me, babe. (: pshh. You know, I think something's influencing me to say 'babe' to my friends. I don't say it in school la, but still. Haha, my sister does that sometimes. Nevermind! my dearest sister. I'm gonna give Joan a belated pressie tmr. (: *secret* I shan't tell you! MUAHAHA. I'm still trying to get into the lair. I was still hardly comforted by the fact that few have gotten in. ): I gotta do my geog SA. :'( Pshh.
Yours,
Determinescence

Hello everyone! What's up? I'm extreme. happy now! Yays! But I gotta go do my CL homework soon. Sheesh. Way to spoiilllll the happiness. I found my sister's blog! Yay! She sells stuff! So if you're clothes crazy or accessories crazy, like me, ting and lyx, IM me on MSN and I'll give you the link! Yay! Haha. My sister is so sweet to me! And one night, I was helping her with her selling, with my friend Fina. She went to take picture without both of us knowing and put it on her blog!! Haha, you can find it. The reason why I don't just outright post her blog link here is cause I don't want her blog to be spammed by some weird spammer freakos. So if you're my friend, I trust you, I'll give you her blog link! And trust you not to give it to weird freaks. Like people who will comment:

1. Hi
2. I
3. Like
4. What
5. You're
6. Selling
7. Can
8. Sell
9. To
10. Me?

I'm not saying all of you are liddat la, but then I know, or rather have met some people whom I'm sure would do just that. Okay, going to find out more info about accessories, I want to sell stuff too!
Yours,
Determinescence
PS: pshhh, i posted this on the one-nine blog and had to go delete and everything. troublesome.

'ello everyone! haha, this will be a quick post before I have to go do something important for my class. Yay 112! These days have been real fun! And I've actually seen Carrie and Shoeless and Danielle at my house these CNY days! Yay! Carrie rather forgot about me liaos though, shes got nicer friends at Nanyang. Can't blame her. (: I suck. I was reading Julie's blog! Yay! Oh and you shouldn't post pictures of yourself publicly. tsk tsk tsk. her posts are like so super depressing! You hear that, Julie! pssh, why you so stressed? ): I thought I was bad. Your parents are just watching out for you la, if they're putting pressure on you, talk to them! Poor thing. ): I'm glad you and HuiQi are such great friends! (: (: Why is Hui Qi so stressed also? I'm sure not many ex-RGPers are so freaking stressed leh, why everyone like so depressed man? You and her are so bloody mushy :P Like 'I'm tearing' and 'I just want to grab her and never let go'. Haha! Anyways, you two must stay happy okay? (: (: I'm here to talk to too! Don't be so stressed! Take sec life one little step at a time. :D
ttyl!
Determinescence.

Hello everyone! Today's word is 'test'! One, on Car's blog, which seems dead, pretty much... Two, my math teacher is like, "Got to prepare you for the test, test, test, test." Then had geog test yesterday too. DX I really hope that I did well. Either ways, I'm really happy! {youcantrainonmyparade} Yeah! Today we were celebrating and we had a class party planned by me, Ruby and Jing Han! Yay! I don't think that the class is angry at us anymore. ((: Anyways, I stayed up till 2 last night to plan, and wanted to wake up at 5, but my phone couldn't wake me up, which shows how tired I was... It's SUPER loud! Yeah, so I didn't have sufficient time to do the ppt slide I was going to do. And in the end, I didn't need the food tags, cause people brought different stuff than what they put on the list! Grr. It was so much fun though! First, we had Chinese and English, which wasn't so fun, but cool anyway. No recess though.. :P We presented our shape poem, ours was an arrow, and we made it point down, so we were like, I was walking down to downtown, one step down, two steps down, down all the way. To visit my sister who was feeling down because her grades were going down. I saw her cat wearing hand-me-downs. Haha, it was super funny! Listening to Running After You now, kindly provided by Ting Fang! Yay! It's also the only song I have on my private laptop. '-.- But it's great! We also presented our assonance thing, then while we were finishing up, the bell rang, signalling the beginning of the class party, and I got so agitated that I began hyperventilating and bouncing up and down. :P So e.m.b.! Ah well. Then Mrs. Loh let us go and we moved all the chairs and tables back, leaving some in the middle, then put the food on the table and ate! But then you see, the food was supposed to be all halal, but **** *** forgot, so some people got angry lah, then she ran out of the room to cry. DX I went to find her later, but others already found her. She was like, "Sorry Determinescence, sorry!" It's okay la, I mean we had lots of other food anyway, (:. Yeps, ******* forgot to bring her love letters, and she was also like, "Sorry, I'm really sorry!" I was like, "It's okay la, it's not even compulsory and you wanted to bring it, it's the thought that counts right? It's okay la..." Haha, then she happy liao. Back to the party, yeah, so we found **** *** and Ruby said that we needed an atmosphere, so we began the music! So nice. (: Yepps, everyone was either eating or dancing, cause I threatened to paste an 'EMO' sticker on their head if they didn't enjoy themselves. :P Then we had to do this CNY Quiz, which rather took a lot of time.. DX We rushed the 112 Dance Resort competition. We didn't have time to vote in class, so I passed around a paper during Assembly. The concert was nice, but Jane and I could not understand most of it, so we also spent most of it 'hammering' each other's hands. Then we took turns to test our kick reflex, and used our hands to 'chop' each other's knees. Haha! It felt weird, cause your leg really jerks out of control! Yeah... We mastered the area to 'chop'. So fun! Yupp, but after that nothing really much happened, besides my math tuition teacher being teased by me! Oh and my sister just went out, cause she and Jon were waiting for Kian Zi to finish his Mario game before they went out for dinner. :P He kept them waiting and waiting. It waas really entertaining though. (: Yay!

Alright, that's enough for today okay?

Yours truly,
Determinescence.

Hello everyone. Failure has been on my mind all day. Yupps. Firstly, during the space before math and during math when Mrs. Ang was out, Ruby and I, Welfare Comm helped to plan larh, but some people weren't really listening, so Ruby, JH and I decided to talk to them later la. So before everyone went to lunch, we three went to the front and waited for some other announcements to be over. Even then, people weren't listening. So once they were done, everyone was talking and I yelled, "ONE-TWELVE!" Still no one heard, so Josephine was like, "EVERYONE QUIET AND LISTEN TO DETERMINESCENCE (not my real name)." Everyone kept quiet and Ruby began, then I was helping also la, cause we both were super disappointed. Then we were like, "You all respect teachers, but you need to learn to respect your schoolmates too. Some people, while class comm are making announcements, are looking at your nails, doing your homework (Haitong), looking at the back (Shao Wei immediately turned around and apologised. That was funny) Shao Wei also agreed with us and all la, but then I guess it kinda got out of hand. Ruby said, "We're trying to plan this for you all, if we didn't plan it, what do you think the CNY Party will be like? Let's try an experiment, we don't plan the party and we see how it turns out." Then Selene got super angry and said, "Welfare Comm shouldn't be like that, right?" Then she and Ruby had some minor arguing, then the class wanted to go for lunch, so I was like, "Go lah go lah." I thought nevermind la, small thing also okay la right? Then Shao Wei wrote on the board, "112, we still <3 you guys, (something something something), but I'm disappointed in some of you." Then I wrote a note below too, then said hi to Selene, but she don't want to talk to me also. I was kinda of sad, so I went back and strangled my panda soft toy. Then Si Ying came in early, so I asked her if she thought that the class was angry at me. Then she said yeah. So I was like super depressed la. Two weeks and I'm already unpopular. I seriously don't need that. I was still okay compared to later on though, I thought, aiyoh, okay la, will boil over later right? Later was quite good, esp during Chem, cause Ms. Koh was super nice to me. But then, when we went back to class, Shao Wei, Selene and Ruby had a short meeting, cause they're chair, vice-chair and welfare comm head, then I think SW said something to Selene, like, "Ruby only told us." Then Selene was like, "Told is not the correct word." Then shot daggers at SW and stormed out. At least she didn't slam the door. I was super depressed la, then I had to change to prepare for gym, so I went behind the lockers, and thought about it while changing then I just started crying. Luckily we have the curtain now. Then I finished changing and walked out and started throwing stuff pell-mell into my bag, then took it out to do my Chem homework. I mean, Selene also shouldn't be like that right? She's vice-chair! Argh, I'm so angry and sad at the same time that I dunno.
Signing off,
Determinescence.

Hello! I decided that everytime I update my blog, I will put a smiley next to the link to my blog in my MSN personal message. And the title of my posts will be based on my favourite word or phrase of the day! Yay!

Today's word is cause I saw it twice! Once on my fortune cookie packet and on the Florida Natural Apple Juice! The juice was so good! Yumm..
I bought my fortune cookie from this shop for seventy cents. My sister paid though. It's followed me around all day and I'm eating it now. <333 I also bought 200g of these cookies called 'Brandy Snaps', these real delicious NON-ALCHOLIC biscuits! 75g is for the class party this coming friday, 25g for me, and 100g for my private party this coming saturday! And these cookies with M&Ms in them, 30g for class, 30g for me, 40g for party! (: See how little I give myself to provide for you frens? These are the people I will be inviting:
+ Fina
+ Kar Rong
+ Rachel Ho
+ Shao Wei
+ Carissa
+ Lidan
+ Elisa
+ Linnette
+ Trina

You might ask me why I'm inviting them since I'm angry at some, but still, we're total BFFs!

Seriously Considering:
+ Selene (Don't know her well, but she's real nice!)
+ Ting Fang (Don't know her well, but she's real nice!)
+ Claire (Real nice, but will she mix well with others?)
+ LanQiao (Everyone's so mean to her, it's time for a change)

Yeah, and I'd post more, but people are waiting for this list, so, another time! If you wanna suggest more, leave a comment and say who! I think I had more people, but I forgot them cause blogspot didn't publish my other one with the full list.
Yours,
Determinescence.

Hello to everyone who still reads my blog! (: Hahaz, about no one, so I'm blogging to myself! Yay! Or not. Haha, I just had my OWLs on Final Prophecy (http://finalprophecy.proboards50.com/ - haha, I don't care about how lousy you think FP is Lidan, You lucky I didn't tell Allison okaes... :P) yesterday. I was so nervous in school you know! THEN LIDAN WENT TO TELL MY OWLER HOW NERVOUS I WAS!!! Grr. Haix, my OWLer, Freedom Isn't Free, haha, I bet she was laughing at me larhxx. I really hope I pass! So nervous, she sent it to the teachers liaos, I should be getting my results soon! Oh, and when she sent me a PM 'Re: OWLS', I was so scared it would contain bad information or something, so I didn't open it this morning, and when I finally opened it, I covered the text and read line by line, promising myself to close it if it contained something I didn't want to read. :P See how lame I can be?? '-.-I tell you, the moment I receive the next thing titled 'OWLS', it's gonna take me a week before I finally open it, but maybe not, cause my curiousity would get the better of me. :P I will be really scared though. Maybe I'll get Lidan or Shao Wei to open it for me. They are the only two whom I truly trust right now. Besides Linnette, I trust Linn, but dear Linn can't log in properly to FP, that's why she can't help me. Car is just getting me angry right now. Like the other day, when we went to RGPS to see the teachers, we ran into my gym junior (I can't believe I'm finally a senior!! SQUEE!!) and she was like, go to Nanyang, don't go to RGSS!!!! I mean, I don't mind if she's telling my juniors to go to Nanyang, school spirit is expected, but she deliberately told her not to go to RGSS!! And in front of Ms. Lim, she was bragging about Nanyang, bragging, not telling about, and turned to me and asked, "Don't you regret not getting lower marks and going to Nanyang?" I was sorta angry, so I just said No, but then added a reason, which was I won't survive in HCL, so I turned back to look at Ms. Lim, then I could see Car roll her eyes. Then, after that, she was like, maybe we should meet up again on Saturday, I miss you and Shao Wei so much! I wasn't sure whether I really wanted it, so I just kind of grunted. And I don't think she really misses us lor, she just misses telling us how great Nanyang is and how sucky RGSS is. Urgh! Nanyang is a really nice school, I totally agree with that, but she doesn't have to degrade my school!

*sigh, breathes* Haha, you know, my maid, she wanted to bring my dog outside, but she was holding the mop, so Sassy was like so scared and pretended that she could not walk, so my mother was like, nevermind larh, then Sassy like, scrambled back to her super despo. Brb, dinner now.

Back! Typing with one hand now, eating yum pineapple tarts. <333 ((:Dinner took me about 3 minutes, cause there was like, green chilli inside and my mum said it wasn't hot, but it totally was, and it took away my appetite. Then, I saw those irresisitble pineapple tarts on the kitchen counter. They were calling my name!! Dett, (not my real name, but no way I', posting it here.) Dett, Dett, eat us, you KNOW you want to... Who was I to say no? I'm sad though, cause it's the only box before the real goodies that my mum orders come, so I can't eat it all. :'( Maybe I will anyway. They're sooo filled with pineappley goodness! *pops last bit into mouth and chews really slowly* Mmm. Bye bye tarteys, will eat more of your friends later! (:

Remember I said I was so over that guy? I can't get him out of my mind okay, he was even in the Chinese students newspaper! Grr. He pops out everywhere. *glare*

I'm listening to this really nice song now! Here's a little bit of it. It's called 'Hey Juliet', by 'LMNT'

Hey Juliet.....
Hey Juliet
Hey I've been watching you.
Every little thing you do.
Every time I see you pass by my homeroom class,
makes my heart beat fast.
I've tried to page you twice
But I see you roll your eyes

I don't know, it just gives me a little, hopeful kind of feeling. (: The tune just rocks too! You can hear the song at Zhen Ling's blog, which is where I first discovered the song! Haha, it also reminds me of me and Shao Wei's pact in this line:

Maybe some day you and me can run away.

Haha, cause Shao and I want to move into our own little apartment when we grow older! Yay! But, I doubt that our double pact (yes, it's a double pact) will last. It's a double pact:

1. Move into apartment together, find the guy, make sure both of us have found him, have a double wedding, you know, where two couples get married, and then move into separate houses, sell the apartment and split the money!

2. Be friends forever no matter what conflicts occur.

See? But, well, we both get caught up in our own lives. Like today, throughout PSL Session and Mass Cheering, she totally like, didn't talk to me. And like, on MSN, it's always me who goes, 'HI SHAO!!', all enthu and stuff. ALWAYS. She never initiates it! If I were to never see her in school, she wouldn't notice and wouldn't bother calling me. Sighz. I heard that Sec Sch friendships are closer though, so that's good! (:

About my school life... Let's see. Yesterday, I had Rhythmic Gymnastics sort-of-trials. Wah, I had to bend until like what okay.. And my left leg is my bad leg in split, and the teacher press so hard until I touch the floor! My left leg was shaking like mad. *glowers* Stupid shakey thingo. I was thinking, pain, pain, pain!!! I survived though! I realised that I have no hand-foot co-ordination. :P I can do the gym legs moves, the ropes moves, but not both together! '-.- I got so nervous I like, didn't dare to do anything... Today, I had Artistic Gym! I just realised how much I truly miss gym when I did the floor. I was so happy, just doing what I'm good at and talking to my friends. Feng Yue, a girl whom I was bowling with at Bowling Second Trial, got into Art Gym! YAY! I like her, she's very nice. I thought she would go bowling, since she was 6 rank, but apparently her mum didn't want her to take bowling, so she put art gym as first choice. (: Another big + for art gym! At first, she was like, oh are you the girl I bowled with? I was like, DUH! I can't believe you, Feng Yue! We were like laughing and laughing. Simone is in art gym! Yay, it's a good opportunity for me to get to know her better. We didn't really know each other that well in Pri Sch, even though we're both GEPs. Gym was really fun, but it didn't help my muscle aches from Rhyth Gym... But, Li Mei is in Rhyth Gym and she's like, one of the bestest PSLs!! :'( I'm just not cut out for Rhyth though... Oh, and the Gym male coach is super nice! He only teaches the Seniors though. He let us play on the trampoline, Go ahead! During playtime, you all can play! So it wasn't really playtime, more of a really long water break, but tramp is way fun!! The seniors were practising tramp. They're like, so super pro larh!! *turns green with envy* His facial expression when one of the girls make a mistake is freaky though. My coach is the female one, she's nice too, but can be scary too. :P Yeah, so I've decided to join Art Gym, but I have to change my 3rd Lang days! :'( :'( I'm really sorry, Linn!! Haix. My parents aren't happy though, cause gym is on tues, thurs and sat, and my 3rd lang will prob be like, mon and fri, so the only day I come back at regular time is wed... I'm sad too! I might drop 3rd Lang altogether though. Sighzz.

Oh, I promised to post my poem here right?

I am someone invisible who runs from her fears
I wonder why God gave us our crying tears
I hear the deathly silence, the silence of the dead
I see the traces of life from which someone fled
I want tears of joy and acceptance from my peers
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

I pretend that I am cheerful and carefree
I feel the gentle caress of the wind on my cheeks
I touch the indiscernible barrier that distinguishes me from others
I worry that the hurt will never heal
I cry when you say we cannot be friends
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

I understand that soon I will be free
I say that I will never forget those who made me feel unique
I dream of a world where something special always lies ahead
I try to hold on to what I believe in
I hope that one day everything will be clear
I am someone invisible who runs from her fears

It's much better on microsoft, cause I have a rocking font and nice pics of roses. (: I'm trying to concentrate on my fanfics, but with FP so addictive, I can't stop! Haha, I managed to get in a whole paragraph of the last chappie of Fight Against Voldemort last night. Car isn't going to be very happy with me... DX

Okay, I'm drained and don't know what else to say. So, I shall wrap it up! G'nite!! *grabs more tarts*

Yours,
Determinescence.

Hello everyone! I'm quite happy now. (: I was really sad during house prac though.. Shan't tell you why! But the chocolate ice cream that I had during break was yummy. (: Yay! Oh, you know during house prac, so ridiculous okay, they made us run and cheer for Tarbet! Sheesh, the running was so unneccessary. From my first Tarbet House prac, I was really unimpressed. poot. Anywayss, I made up this song after PSL session! SW wanted to read it, but I didn't let her, but I told her that I'd post it on my blog. HAH! TOLD YOU SO! I'm also supposed to write this 'I Am' poem for English, shall post it here when I'm done! (: Oh, and I told you I was inspired to blog. Have I ever, on any other occasions blogged twice in two days?? :P Here the song is anyway, it's not done either but nvm:
I don't know why I keep on trying -
My futile attempts
To stand out from the crowd
To be somebody else.
Why...
Do I wanna be extraordinary
when everybody else around me
Is just as ordinary.
Why do others say they know me,
How can they truly,
When I don't even know myself
When I don't even know myself.
Maybe sometimes you need to see the bigger picture
If you want to understand
If you want to identify with yourself
You need to see yourself from the outside.

That's all I have so far! (: Likey? Hatey? Neutraly? :P So much weekend homework. Sigh..

TTYL!
Determinescence.

Hellooo everyone! It's me here. Again. Haven't blogged for a long time, despite Car's continued 'Do you still blog?' Haha, the oneohnine blog has inspired me to blog! Yay! Oh, does anyone know how to lock their blog with a password?! Anyway. life at RGS is brightening, at first I was just friggin scared of it and the PiTs and the PSLs and the Head Girl. I don't want to go to DC!!!!! So far, I haven't been booked, I've been a very good girl, like an angel. (: Aren't you happy for me? Cause I'm happy for me. Yay! I've transferred class two times! The first time, I was in 113 lah, Waddle. Waddle rocked! The Captains were like super enthu and really nice. (: The Vice-cap takes 3rd Lang, saw her at MOELC the other day. Sadly, she doesn't know me. :( Anywayy, transferred to 109 for unknown reason, Buckle! The people there are really nice! The PSLs and PiTs always thought that we were ostracising some people, but who? I really didn't think that others were being ostracised. Well, I guess they would know more than me right? Anyway, after that, I did make an effort to be more extrovert-ic than I usually / always am. In P3, it took me half a year to find a BFF. DX. Aren't you sad for me? Now, I'm in RESORT 112, TARBET TANGO! I <3 tango, but I'm not telling anyone. Except for people who read this. I'm not really telling you either. Arh, scratch that. The people are relatively nice, but they’re not as warm as oneohniners!!! Hehe, *hastily scratches out.* When I left 109, people like stayed back for 10 mins to sing a song. So sweet! See what I mean? (: In fact, it was the new one oh nine blog that inspired me to blog! YAY! Haha. We've had only 3 tests this year so far, I think... One was Lit Quiz. Ouch, my marks, no way I'm telling anyone. Geog FA1, I was almost in tears okay. I've never had such low marks before for el-related subject and geog. I wasn't expecting to get full marks but... I was hoping to linger and talk to SW a while after school, get stuff off my chest, but the class took so long to file out, I gave up. Shao Wei didn't take any hints anyway. I'm okay now, but with newfound determination! I wanna get really good marks for lit, EL, geog, history and CL! YAY! Okay, the last test was this Grammar test, I got 36 outta 40. Not bad la, but I was still angry with myself. That's another bad thing that comes with determination besides stubborness, lots of disappointment in yourself. Well, you get over it eventually. Like me! Yay! It's sad that Elisa and Car aren't in our school too! :'(:'(:'( I miss them lots. But during the early year, remember I said I was scared of RGS? Then I was like talking to Carissa about it and stuff, and she was always like, oh, NYGH is very good, they're handphone rules are so slack etc. She said she knows Rachael from her class, RGPS ex-head, and I was like oh, she went to NYGH? Finally, our convo sorta ended with Car going, oh, not everyone thinks RGS is the best school you know. I don't know how much more I can take, so I haven't been talking to her much lately. She has all her new BFFs anyway, Jean or something, and having fun with 'CHOOICHOOI' or something. :( I doubt Car and SW will read this anyways, they've probably given up on my blog. :P On a brighter note, oh, I forgot. '-.- Sorry! Sighx... Oh, I remembered! I have more nintendo games!! So fun. Sad that got less time to play now that there's school . I'm still getting adjusted to the hours though, cause I'm not used to two extra hours of school. Today, I missed the whole of Assembly due to reasons so embarrassing I shan't tell. After school, SW and frens went back to RGPS for a visit. So bad! They didn't ask me to go along too! See, it's proof that my closest friends are forgetting about me. Even Elisa hasn't contacted me for months. Including Fina, Kar Rong, Tabitha and co. Sad... I shall have to find new people to talk to. :'( Looks like SW and my plan to live in the same apartment before we marry later in life is going down the drain. Will have to find new people to talk to. All the oneohniners are nice, Jane and Charisse too! If you sit next to Charisse, you'll find that she's not as quiet as you think she is / she was in RGPS. I miss Mr. Tan's free chocolate and the easy math. :'( Sighxx. At least I went back to CL. CL is so much funner! If you're late / never do homework, LAO SHI HUI FA NI DU GU SHI SHU! HAHAH! So funny. Ruby and Rachel always deliberately go to class late, it's annoying cause those who actually make an effort to go early for CL do it for nothing. Jane and I actually run to CL class, they toddle. Seriously, they take tinyyyyy steps. Nevermindd... (: I'm sleepy now. Have house practice tmr. My first Tarbet Tango prac! Oh, go see a tango, it's so nice! (: Especially if the pair dancing is good. Like Cheetah Girls Dance With Me Tango, Joaquin is so cute! (: :P Oh, and remember that 'oh-so-cute' guy I mentioned in one of my earlier posts? I decided I don't like hinm anymore. He's become sick-minded and disgusting, poot! Yupps, I don't even know him personally anyway. I am crush-less now. I'm not going to tell you who he is, even if I've stopped going crazy over him. I have regained my determined gleam, not my dreamy one, and am charging straight ahead in the new year. w00t!
Comment, if you see this!
Yours,
Determinescence.